so this is what a heartbreak feels like.
this longing, this jealousy, this adoration,
this pain.
letting you go, losing us,
leaving my hopes,
fuels nothing but this raging waves of craving you.
your voice, your touch, your scent, your thoughts,
your heart.
if I knew I had your heart, if I knew you would leap with me, if I knew
you would take a chance with me,
would I not hurt this much?
but I grieved when I tell myself that I couldn’t end us before we happened,
so I let the world swallow my memories, I let the world consume my tears, I let the world celebrate your absence,
because I fear of not recognising myself in the mirror when this ends, when you end, when I end,
eventually.
so this is what a heartbreak feels like.
