As cliché as it may sound, as religious as it may feel, I believe in fate. I think that everything happened for a reason. There is no such thing as coincidence. Out of all the encounters with various people in the first quarter of my life, one of the few fateful encounters I could never be more grateful for was meeting you two on some scorching hot days in Depok, 2017. To stumble across you and decide it was the right thing to stick with you was all planned, written in each of our lifelines. He put you in my life as he did me in yours.
Growing on each other as we grow together planted a steady seed in our minds to persistently learn by heart that we are prone to change; everything we consume might alter what we think, feel, and say.
I could have hurt you more than you do me, or vice versa. Nonetheless, we have decided to stay. Through the uncertainty and inconstancy of life, the good and bad times, the intertwining tension and silence, I saw how my demons embraced you and made your skin prickle with warmth, but still, you gave in to a tighter hug.
All this relentless act of kindness made me wander along an abstruse philosophical passage of how long we could keep this up, entertaining each of our egos to humbly accept flaws and faults, wondering how this would end and how we would end, yet it never did. I hope it never does.
However, sooner or later, greater distance will keep us apart. But it wasn’t something new for us, was it? Since the beginning, we have always gone our separate ways. I — we.. just never get tired of coming back home to each other with plenty of stories to tell, experiences to share, and dreams to tend to.
Bit by bit, I continue to carry a piece of you two as I move forward. I eat the year away boldly as I pursue life’s purposes, knowing very well that there will always be the two of you who genuinely and sincerely keep my name in your prayers. I wish you could tear my heart open and see how much you mean to me because sometimes — even now — I suppose these words are insufficient to convey what I think and feel of you two. I want this love to transcend into the support you need through all the battles you keep from me or those I fail to recognize, even after all the strings you have laid for me to connect.
So, to the two strangers I have loved ever since I met you, until an indefinite time, which I hope only God knows, please remember that I will always undoubtedly cheer for you two every step of the way. I will always excitedly listen to what that astonishing mind of yours has to say. And I will always wholeheartedly welcome you two with open arms.
